I thought today I would tell you a bit of my story and what has brought me to where I am today on my journey to a healthier fitter ME.
up I never had a huge issue with weight, I wasn't one of those that
could eat anything and not gain a pound. I kept active enough that I
didn't gain weight....then I had my first child and gained a whopping
65lbs...after my son was born I kept active and worked hard to shed the
excess weight and got back to my pre-pregnacy weight. I was happy with
my body type and my weight.
3 years later I became pregnant
with my 2nd child and once again the weight piled on around 65lbs
again. This time I retained water like a sponge. Needless to say I
wasn't as active as far as exercising went, I was exhausted from chasing
after 2 little ones....then 11 months later I was pregnant with my 3rd
child. I had lost some of what I had gained with my 2nd but not
enough....you can see where this is going....gaining and gaining and
I wasn't eating proper meals the first form of sabotage, then I started eating emotionally as my hubby and I weren't
the happiest couple around for a while. Needless to say I let myself go for the
last 23 years. Our relationship improved but I still ate like life
didn't matter. I tried this diet and that diet, seen a few lbs here and
there disappear only to show back up with friends.
Weight Watcher meetings but I didn't get anything from them. I didn't
get any inspiration from the leader (maybe my mind wasn't in the right
place) I found that I was paying to go and weigh in, pick up the
little brochure/recipe that they were giving away that week. Then about
a year later I tried it again...only to end up with the same fate.
tried all the different fad diets out there even the SouthBeach Diet -
that one didn't last very long. About 5 years ago I thought I would try
Herbal Magic, thinking maybe this one would work, I left there with my
head spinning....I crunched the numbers they gave me for the program,
the supplements, concluded I would be broke before I even started. They
tried to convince me that we spent that much in junk food and eating
out.....I think NOT. We didn't even come close to the $700+/month for
junk food and eating out...we bought Pizza once a week and it was only
costing us $30 and we didn't eat out. So then two years later I made a
second visit to Herbal Magic, not to join but to get the information of
the supplements then off to the health food store I went with the pages
of information to try and find the same things. I got most of the same
things or close to them anyways. So following Herbal Magic and the info
from the Health Food Store I started journalling my food intake, water
intake, taking the supplements I was off. I quite drinking Pop - this
was a big one for me; At one time I was drinking, (oh you'll just die
when I tell you) 1.5 - 2+ litres of Pepsi a day......yep your eyes are
not playing tricks on you.
I was doing great from April 1, 2008
- June 8, 2008 I had lost 35lbs, I was under 200 lbs, I was thrilled.
Then out of no where my world crashed all around me and I mean
crashed...My dad passed away suddenly the morning of June 8th. It has
taken me nearly 4 years to let go of the hurt from his passing and start
living my life for me again. I stayed in the past...I was living June
7, 2008 over and over because then I didn't have to face or accept my
dear dad had left me and this world to be with my mom again after 42
years. I got a big ole double whammy, for the first time I had to deal
with the loss of my mom when I was 6 months old. My hubby, bless his
sole stuck by me not knowing what to say, hoping & praying I would
pull out of deep dark place I was in. I Did!!
Well here I am today and
proud to say I live in the here and now. I am moving forward,
loving my life and the new me I am becoming with every step I make. I
have accepted my dad's passing and remember he will always be in my