Before my dad passed away suddenly in June 2008 I had started on a journey to a new me, changing my lifestyle and was doing great I was down 35lbs from 01-Apr-2008 to 08-Jun-2008. The day my dad left this world I hit a brick wall as tall as the Eiffel Tower. It has taken me close to 3.5 years to break that wall down, stone by stone. Before starting my journey for the second time I could talk the talk of what I needed to do. I just couldn't walk the talk. I knew what I had to do so that I didn't end up with the same fate as my dear dad did. His life was cut short far too soon because of plugged arteries, a weak heart, water retention and the start of Diabetes.
I was looking for
someone to wave the magic wonder over me and Wall-la I would be skinny
and healthy. Ya Right...it don't work that way. I had to deal with my
grief and get to the point where I could move forward. With the help of
a fabulous Councillor I did just that....then I had to take a good hard
long look at myself in the mirror. I mean I had to really open my eyes
and look and stop living with the image I had kept of how I used to
look. You could say I had to look at myself with other people's eyes.
remember the day my daughters, my best friend and I were shopping for
outfits for my dad's funeral. I tried on a summer dress just for the
fun of it because I really really like it....well my eldest daughter
yells across Sears "Aunty, come look at how amazing my mom
looks.....come see how much weight she has lost." I was embarrassed
because I felt a spot light pointed right at me, but I as also so happy
that my daughter had noticed how amazing I was looking and that she
acknowledged all my hard work. I started remember how good I felt back
then and that people didn't look at me and just see another fat girl.
after letting the weight creep back on these past 3.5 years, my mind
was finally in the right place and now it was time for me to put my body
back in the right place.
My 1st Step was admitting I needed to change my lifestyle. -- CHECK
My 2nd Step was joining WW On-line. -- CHECK
a couple of weeks of figuring out the program it was time to take the
next step....weight myself - boy was I scared to see that number but I
did it. You know what I made it out to be scarier than it was, that was
my 3rd Step. -- CHECK
My 4th step was to change my way of thinking, start believing in myself, that I am worth the change. -- CHECK
My 5th Step
was to start being aware of the every morsel of food I put in my mouth,
track my daily points....looking at food in a whole different way, so
far things are going good and I do see food differently. -- CHECK
My 6th Step was to weigh-in each week on weight in day - Sundays for me. -- CHECK
My 7th Step was to start incorporating more activity into my life. -- CHECK
My 8th Step was to take my measurements, track these once a month. -- CHECK
My 9th Step
was to get a personal trainer to get me on the right path, to learn how
to workout so that I loose inches and pounds not injure myself. --
My 10th Step is to start at the gym, work with the
personal trainer and make working out a part of my day and enjoy it.
JUNE 4th is my first day at the gym. Even picked up new workout clothes
and getting excited. I am going to get my daughter to take my picture
with my phone that day and on the 4th of each month after that I will
get her to take another photo so that I can see my progress.
steps have gotten me to where I am today and to where I am going in the
future. I plan never to go back to where I started. I will never
forget where I was and I will always remind myself that I am worth
everything I have become in my journey.